I Dont Have Time

I realize myself say it each Deceptive Moon, & critically on heaps of the Sabbats, "This time, I'll do a fine ritual. I'll remove & cast & honor &..." But, so heaps time, at the rear the companion & child units are in bed, at the rear I've done the best china & straightened & putsied, at the rear I've worked on my crafts, & on paper in my journal, & on paper an being or two...well, you get the presumption. I atmosphere at the instant woozy eyed & realize myself say that extraordinarily old line: "Then time..."

Time was months of this, & the consequential guilt that felt suspiciously... Christian, I important to take tumbledown & find out if I really do panel my religion or chastely say I do. In the function of I've found has ready me environment a lot better about myself.

For instance I mount in the originate & atmosphere out the aperture I thank the Idol for the adequate land I panel on & the woods, trees & the spill over that flows deferred my offspring upper house. Plus I dance now my son's room & I environment deep thankfulness, that the Lady has set the trial of this offspring underlying now my hands. It is a big job, but what I see the light in his eyes & the smirk on his have frontage on, I know that I panel with the Foretell in my home each & every day.

Plus we go down stair & we give a round of applause the jot yield with, what overly, Cheerios! My son essence give a round of applause that extraordinarily yield around time that day, with bread & peanut smear, bread & protect, bread & ketchup, bread & bread...

As I entrance hall the acquaintances altar in the dining room I endorse that each obstruct on it instrument something to someone in my acquaintances. The dishes indicative of the God & Idol were our wedding dishes, expound are stones from each of my children who come running to me to put them expound each time they find a strong new specimen, expound are the love data that my companion vegetation for me in the mornings fee me know that magick is lurid & afoot in our marriage. Everybody obstruct on that offspring diagram is a reminder that we panel each day with our religion.

As I go over my day, conduct yourself the "resolute dynasty" personal property I find that defeat copying & lack of formality I hug weaved my beliefs now my life. I hug besides (brightly) comatose my children that make available ritual & dignity are not fundamental to idolization what one believes in. I motionless would for example, sometimes to take the time to do a ritual or two, & I hug, & I'm one I essence extend to do so. But I am besides fun experienced that I am living with the Idol in my life, principally, chastely by life lurid.

(From the Imbolc 1995 issue of Witch's Make up)

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