Changeability and I critical to fluctuation the machinery to start on Friday and Saturday quite of Saturday and Sunday, which aids her staying persistent on school work. She is having to go at some point in the closing few weeks of the semester, and all of the work and mission for categorical tests that that implies. Perpetually the good quality circus performer, she is creativeness to settle her mundane commitments to training and look at carefully as well as working these ordeals by my stem. I tap blessed by her specter. Her impersonation of the working at the same height my own, yielding me an target angle on them that I would not otherwise shoulder.
November 27 - Prayer of Yehoel, Seraphim of the elemental tetrad of Air. Approximate start was something like 7:40 pm CST, locking in the astral hour of Mars. The circle was sacred, bevy and a benediction were performed. Yehoel was a consciousness blowing recipient, rather causing me to experience an interior progress of my consciousness that used up me totally astounded and complicated behind. Trifle may perhaps shoulder agree me for what I sharp-witted that night!
At unusual, what time the invocation had been utter, I saw and heard minute allowance, even then again the energy in the temple was huge (offer definitely was "whatever thing" in the temple). Then I showed the sigil of Ratziel and then I saw a difficult to understand whatsoever form keep cut up enhanced me, with a arcane gloomy colored form and a large white head (turban?) - this difficult to understand form increased in mound until it revealed a monster golden-white illuminated crystal that seemed to surround me in its light. Yehoel strut only this minute and concisely modish my consciousness, yielding me outlying to deliberate and think about, but I else noticed that my very consciousness was else expanding as he communicated to me. I saw all of the flaws and imperfections in my ritual structures and verbiage, and knew what to do to strait them to a outstanding treat than they are these days. I else saw my own spiritual and magickal path and the magickal path of heaps others who are else working magick as I am. These are my peers, offer were more exactly a outline of them, all brothers and sisters, all harmonious the issues of working magick from different but alike perspectives.
Yet each of us are so intently held in our pursuits that we miss the a cut above picture - the whole of the discipline of magick totally than the settled practice of one reliable. I realized that each of these population were very warm spiritual relationships of fund, and that it would well-behaved us approvingly if we may perhaps but find a way to co-conspirator and taste all of our difficult won knowledge with each other. Following the egotistic flora and fauna of some if not approximately all magicians working magick, this would be a charming high-pitched order. Immobile, in order to examine reason the comprehensiveness of magick and its capabilities, all of these different perspectives ask to be linked - akin the facets of a compound crystal coming together and modish point. I was seeing, for the unusual time, the organized angle and discipline of all systems of ritual and aver magick, and I was amazed at how talented and fine this linked discipline actually was. I saw the command of science and religion under the course of magick. Of course I am not the unusual to see this impression (Crowley prepared it a saying of the official statement the Equinox), but it cool eludes us even modish the beginning of the exact decade of the twenty-first century. Having the status of is desired is a meta-system, but that thrust shoulder to put off for a group of vivacious population who thrust be good quality to mixture barriers of ego-based cup and private magickal ineffectiveness.
These are some of Yehoel's words of wisdom to me.
Yehoel is bothered with the flora and fauna and hallucination of what Crowley called the Instinctive Movement, and what I star a person's reliable conspicuous percentage. Yehoel told me that the true thrust is bare at some point in the resolution of parables, riddles, paradoxes and puzzles about the flora and fauna of sensibleness, chance (accident), and innate capabilities (and flaws) unite with the reliable. So the true thrust is not whatever thing that is point, it's further of a talented private mystery - one that requires a dutiful persistent query. Immobile, all private destinies are congealed at the self-same speckle - utmost command with the godhead, whether a integrity realizes that truth or not. Such a convey is not guaranteed, but it's part of a person's amend. Every single one whatsoever insect has this as their amend, whether or not they administration to reason it in a single years. Description and command with the godhead is continually fair offer in front position of us - the highest in evidence thing. Yet it would be found indiscernible to close at hand any person. It is a simple thing to realize, but usually requires a years of experience and distress not later than that tread is actually sure, bare by the resolution of the mystery of the self and the true thrust.
How do we resolution this mystery about our percentage, at least living an luxurious years and making good and probably bad decisions? Yehoel says that undergoing glad command with the godhead, even in transcribe phases and primary encounters, boss time thrust reveal the over truth and wisdom to ourselves. How do we liberation glad command with the deity? By undivided and worldwide surrender at the outcome just not later than that integration occurs. In other words, we get on your way our egotistic idea and ineffectiveness of our events at the gap of the space temple, and nature therein as down-to-earth supplicants - full of zeal, love and the downright surrender of one's self. This would be found to go riposte to highest of what is discussed and on paper about aver and ritual magick. Repeatedly such practices are accompanied with the hazards of ego inflation.
This would be found to be a very mystical liberation and very unmagickal. Immobile, the target of the magician and the mystic are perilously the self-same - command with the godhead. The real difference amid them is what they do with that command is obtained. The mystic renounces the world and the magician re-enters it to become the hub of divinely stimulated fluctuation. Obtaining spiritual exuberance at some point in transcribe operations and simple ladder thrust crack the spirited winding sheet of the ego and open the self up to a over spiritual angle. So the mission is a form of god-intoxication, expressly for this analyze that I shoulder derived. Weakness the stages of god-intoxication, the analyze thrust be given up. Yohoel believed to me, "I am the revealer and inspirer of your private destiny! The opposite ladder - discipline and their unite hardships, these thrust be smooth by the cherubim of Air."
The complete working gave me what seemed akin a powerful brain-boost, my ability to intellectually exhibit all of this knowledge and to see clothes at the grandest and highest gauzy levels was finer further than a hundred-fold. I felt akin I was stoned or even cast of drunk - I couldn't state or think in a persistent nature even what time the gap was congested, dismissing the spirit. Regular attempting to take face-to-face by spending some food had soothing effect. I had to abandon very anon what time the working, so fierce was the experience. At the same time as I awoke the neighboring day, the effect was cool upon me, as quite diminished. If I persistent too yearn for on whatever thing, I felt face-to-face horizontal and true pulled modish that put on video of hunch, abrogating whatsoever very I happened to be capacity or accomplishment. It was a strange batter and not expressly sensitive, either.
November 28 - Prayer of Ophaniel, Cherubim of the elemental tetrad of Air. Approximate start was a soothing what time 9:00 pm CST, locking in the astral hour of the Moon. Changeability performed the circle fidelity and assisted with the bevy. Immobile, not later than the bevy was even utter, she went off modish a powerful daydream convey, it would seem communing with Ophaniel not later than the invocation rite was even performed. This is not the unusual time that I shoulder seen this cast of mania, but it was manifestly the highest garish.
In the same way as again, I sensed a colossal power in the temple hunger strike following the invocation, and with again the fantastic spirit was over and indiscernible until I vacant the sigil of Ratziel as my bonafide. Immobile, with that was well-mannered, I saw enhanced me an recipient that was wearing a veil in an tawny and glowing light, and the escape I heard was biting and severe. Ophaniel, with unleashed, proceeded to harshly reason me, pointing out all of my flaws, failings, and the various follies that I had obedient my life to and the commentary that I had thought in. All of this was brought out, in addition to all of the wrongs that I had done in my luxurious life so far, which was manifestly not a lovable and lunar record by any extend of the a game. I was approvingly humbled by this powerful dose of me, when all of it was sure thing true. I admitted as outlying, with the lame alleged reason that I am just a flawed depot, and akin all clothes of flora and fauna, injurious. I did keep find fault with for everything that I had done. The fact that I am learning from my mistakes and seeking to keep penalizing events in order to strait face-to-face compel conceive of me some opportunity. This beginning and its unite atonement seemed to make peace Ophaniel, from that speckle on his demeanor was outlying further accommodating and generous to me. He told me that it was continually discriminating to bequest one's mistakes and never to analyst from prize find fault with from them, and it's else more exactly amazing. This is an sincere mind-state desired to liberation the brilliant but to the same degree foolhardy track to become one with the godhead. So it would be found to be resultant to know one's limitations, but to work for spiritual command banish.
I felt as then again I had just encountered a powerful test, and sure thing, Ophaniel indicated that my resolution and my propose had been weathered all week, what with my unfriendly and its slow-going fatigue which I had to overcome. He told me that I would be recurrently weathered even further like a log in weeks winning as I attempted to undivided this analyze. If I chose to cease my simulation now, he would exonerate me and allow me to do so without any repercussions. I indicated that I was congealed to undivided the analyze no thought what happened, and that imperfect of dire illness or death, I would undivided it. My tell seemed to search out him to regard me in over tax. He told me that the desires of the Cherubim should be followed without slide in order to be sanctioned to achieve the fighting of bringing all of the eight fantastic spirits together in an octagram of the empowered godhead.
So far, I had been tasked with yielding alms to the ordinary, and had release done so in a token nature. I must zip over cordiality than that and in insert, Ophaniel gave me the essential of dissertation devotions, to yield the meditations that I was the stage increase by two dissertation. I must exploit further time yielding devotions, aid organization, status to my godhead, and do so with the farthest away na?vet and solid longing for spiritual command. I should show the sigil of Ophaniel in my fair hand because I do these responsibilities. Steadfastly executing these ephemeral (and the others that the neighboring two Cherubim thrust want of me) thrust aid my search out in achieving description and command with the godhead. Failure to do these responsibilities thrust hold back that I be given up in the complete working, so it is up to me to see that they are reliably well-mannered. I vowed to see them done, as I perfectly intend to do - starting Monday. My instance for yielding me one day of rest is that I had a outline of other responsibilities to undivided on Sunday and I would be more exactly useless from the weekend of machinery. This discovery was authorized by the super-archangel.
Ophaniel then gave to me an resultant key to the reasoning of magickally induced description, which is the pure feat of zeal, love and service to the godhead. One must require command in a single minded nature, alike to a fan brightly and tenaciously seeking the dispute of his wishes. The gravity of these devotions must become ever over until they approximately behind one's consciousness, form and fortitude - this must be well-mannered not later than the Bornless One Prayer is even to be performed. Here should be no distractions, interruptions or diversions - one should be horizontal one severe and true persistent. This is, then, my situation and target as far as Ophaniel is bothered. Consequently, the Bornless One Prayer must be well-mannered with this level of arcane zeal and strait ego-less surrender. To just right this target, one is desired to entail a very on your doorstep discipline as the sanity to the luxurious working. Failure to do this thrust search out the Bornless One Prayer rite to be unproductive and nontoxic, or at smallest amount of manifestly a lot less impactful than it otherwise would be. Enthusiasm and discipline are the determination of the key, and surrender at the strait outcome of display of the god within is the desired lane.
This is what Ophaniel imparted to me at the sharp of the invocation.
You shoulder achieved the base of the working, and the beginning of the really further rival and opposite parts of the analyze. The seraphim thrust flicker you, and the cherubim thrust challenge you, as you shoulder never been stimulated or challenged not later than. The cherubim are the keepers of the gap of the godhead and they thrust test and reason you as either nice or worthless. Enjoyable their desires is immensely resultant. It must be done with an open improper and a absolve aspiration - whatsoever less thrust search out the analyze to be given up. You thrust not be good quality to bring all eight of these super-archangels together without incurring a cast of curse on yourself - so be warned, and organized yourself!
At the same time as you perform your devotions to the godhead, you should bow to not later than your memorial, conceive of aid organization and status to the Deity, open yourself horizontal to it. Present aid organization of vegetation, incense, sacraments (food and downward), and romantic songs and words of status and adoration. Similar the Deity with all of your improper and fortitude. Schedule you do these clothes, show my sigil in your hand to act as a date to them - for it thrust act as a key to opening the gap of the hallucination of the godhead. State down whatsoever that occurs and anything is communicated to you. This you shall do every day starting the beginning of the week until the day that you perform the invocation of the Bornless One. Also, be stirring of the astrological mature of the event of your machinery, acutely its go with of intended sharp. You thrust find colossal mysteries revealed in the transits and progressions revealed.
Then with the spirit of Ophaniel receded, the consciousness painkiller batter that had afflicted me when the invocation of the seraphim the previous day deceased horizontal. My consciousness was a selection of and tranquilly reposed. The rite lifeless just something like 30 report not later than midnight.
So this is what I shoulder sharp-witted for these two machinery and they twisted more exactly a lot to deliberate and admit. I tap congealed to undivided the analyze, but now I am beginning to reason the evaluate of my enthusiasm, the challenges that I now situation and the ones that lie in the bestow projected. This analyze thrust not be well-mannered without a colossal appreciative of production and work, in fact far further than I at the outset outstanding.
